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Dear Husband..

Dear Husband;
You are simply amazing. I don’t tell you often enough how wonderful you are, how strong you keep us as a family unit and just how much I love you. This past year has been a very tough one for our family, life changing things have appeared that we never thought we would have to face. We have faced some real challenge as a couple learning to accept the things that have been thrown in our path. I feel that we are now a lot stronger than we were before, and we will continue to build up skywards, together.

I must admit at the start of all this we grew apart, drastically. It really scared me, I didn’t know how I would make it through all this without you by my side as support. I thought we were going down a long and horrible road, and we were going to have to do it apart. All of this coupled with my issues that I have, has been extremely scary, I felt very low and because of this started to push you even further away and I honestly don’t know how you stuck by my side. You didn’t deserve it, and it made us argue, disagree, row and everything else a happily married couple should not do. It was horrible, I hated myself more and more, but I just couldn’t get out of that rut. I still find some days tough and I’m sure you do too, even though being a manly man that you are you don’t admit it.

I am so glad now that we are stronger than we have ever been and that we tackling everything thrown at us together. You are my best friend, my soul mate, my shoulder to cry on, my companion, the one who laughs at my stupid jokes, helps me spell silly words that I just can’t grasp, you make me smile when it has been tough day, cuddle me when there just isn’t any words to explain what I am feeling or what is going on in my head. You make the world seem a little less scary, you hold my hand when times are tough, you help me relax when things are getting on top of me, you guide me when I just can’t guide myself, you make me feel beautiful even when I am wearing the same clothes that I had on when you left for work, you give me the confidence to carry on, you give me the strength to keep my head above water when it feels like I could so easily slip under and you make me feel loved; when I just can’t understand how anyone could.

I really can’t thank you enough for all that you do, you accepted me for who I am and took both me and my wonderful daughter under your wing and treat us like royalty (most of the time ;]) You are the greatest father I could ask for my children. You always put them first and make sure they are happy and have everything they could ever dream of.
We all really love you and couldn’t do this without you.
You, are simply incredible.
My 1 in 7 billion.
My best friend.
My husband.

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Remembering the Good <3

Time just seems to vanish at the moment, since having my little man i seem to blink and a week disappears! It doesn’t seem like ten days since I last blogged.. more importantly it is nearly impossible for e to believe that he is 7 weeks old today… did I have a giant sleep through a few weeks after having him?!?

Some days it feels like he has been here forever, we have a lovely little routine (which generally works..) his big sister is completely in love with him and everything goes as smoothly as it can with a three year old and a 7 week old! I can’t wait for it to be the summer so that I can start taking hem both out for long walks and explorers as right now it is a little cold for him to b out and about for a long period of time..

Other days I don’t know how i cope. My three year old doesn’t listen or help and the little man just wants to be held constantly, which obviously just can’t always happen so easily whenever I am trying to entertain my little girl! These days I just want to scream, run and hide. I think that there is no way that I am going to get through the day.. but I manage! Mainly because of my fantastic hubby, who doesn’t always know how rough of a day it has been but will aways make me smile and give me a cuddle when he gets through the door from work! Then there is my mu, who I know no matter what that she is just a little phone call away and if i’m really struggling she will be with me as quickly as she can to help. Generally I just call and ask what is she up to and does she fancy coming round for a cuppa, because one thing I’m not to great at is asking for help or support. I feel that if i ask for this then I am admitting defeat and that I wouldn’t be able to do it all on my own. I like to think that no matter what happens I would be able to cope on my own and handle the kids, suppose most people like to know they can do it on there own, but I know I must work on opening up to people about how I feel and to ask for help when I need it rather than just hoping that they will see that I need it. Talking about emotions and how I feel about anything at all though isn’t a strong point at all for me

The main thing that gets me through the hard days, is remembering the good. Remembering how fantastic and well behaved my little three year old ca be when she wants to be. That I have a great support network full of family & friends;Also how lucky I am to have a beautiful loving family, a roof over our heads and full tummies.
Thank you guys ❤

So; Remember the good times, because hey, life would be too predictable if we didn't have the bad.
What do you guys do/think to get you through the hard times?

WeeOhana x