Everyone knows things change when you have a baby, I don’t think anyone realises quite as much until it actually happens!
I myself was pretty young when I had my first little one so had only just got into the partying and making real friendships! The party thing obviously had to stop as soon as I found out I was pregnant.. Though I didn’t expect it to stop all together after I had the baby too! (How silly was I!) I thought hey I’ll be able to go out when the baby is sleeping, or when she can be minded, I didn’t realise I wouldn’t want to party and would want to be home with my baby even when she was sleeping! I can’t remember the last time I went out and partied and let my hair down! Though I wouldn’t have it any other way as she has made me who I am today, shucks I would rather spend a night cwtched up in bed with her watching all the Disney movies then be out anyway! At the moment though I can’t really party.. As being pregnant and sore kinda puts a bit of a downer on the situation and no comfier a place than sprawled out in bed! It does sometimes though get me down because I didn’t get to experience it all and do all the crazy things I wanted, though I always feel super guilty when I think about that! How can I put my life before hers, right?
On the real friendship front.. Who wants a friend who can’t go out and party, go on girly holidays, go shopping constantly, not really the best of fun with a child huh! So I can see why many of the so called friends I had back then disappeared from my life pretty promptly after they realised having a baby completely changed me, my life and my availability of going out! I do sometimes wish that more of them had made the effort to make plans before the actual night or would even come and chill out while she slept and we could have watched a movie or just gossiped! I unfortunately quite often do get rather lonely and down about the whole friend front, mind you I do have a couple of friends and of course my family who I couldn’t be without! Though feeling you don’t have someone you can just call and go out with or just chill with is a bit of a bummer!
After having my little girl it has made me notice just how much your family do do for you and how much they are their for you, I couldn’t have done half the things I have done without them! My mum is a giant part of my day to day life, if I have a concern or anything at all I can contact her and I am so greatful that she lives so close to me and puts up with me so much! I have a strong dislike to going out by myself, I’m not sure if I was so bad before having my little one. Now though if I go out with myself I’m always panicking that people are looking or saying something about me. People always say don’t let what others think bother you,but it bothers me. I always try to convince myself it doesn’t and will take the little one out by myself when hubby is at work, when I do I end up nearly running into the shopping grabbing what I want and running back out, incase little one throws a wobbler and I don’t know what to do.. And because I just get so panicked! So my mum generally comes out with me and I feel great when out with someone else no panicking or anything!
Babies/children change your life in many other ways too for example, money, views, etc! Though I’ll leave that for another night and pop to bed now 🙂
Nighty night fellow bloggers x