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The Start of a Long Journey

I’m not really sure what to write, or how to phrase what I write really, I just know that I need to write it somewhere as a place to get it out and as a sort of journal for what all is about to begin. Currently we are just starting a long journey with our handsome son to see what is going on with him. Our first step is Monday when he is getting seen by the audiologist.

I’ve had my worries about him for a while, but it took me  until a few months to convince myself that I wasn’t just being silly and there was something going on. I then decided to book a doctors appointment and went armed with a list of my worries and concerns about what was going on with him. I felt like a crazy mum going in with a list, but the doctor there knows me well, was very welcoming and told me he was glad I had a list so that I didn’t forget anything. So after him checking over my little monkeys ears/throat etc we discussed what I was worried about, he decided that we needed to get the health visitor over to see him asap and to get the ball rolling to sort things out with him. One thing he said that really got to me was that “he will either progress from here, or start to go backwards.”

After speaking to my doctor I was hoping to have a weight lifted off my shoulders and him telling me that I was just being silly, not to rush him and so forth but as you can tell, thats not how it went. I came home and got on the phone to the health visitor to get her to come and sort us out. I had to wait a week until she was available to come over, and I’m sure a lot of you reading this are parents and you know how long a week feels when you are in panic and upset about your child.. little did I know the waiting time of a week was the shortest I would endure in this process.

When she arrived she asked me what my worries and concerns were and we got to have a good chat as he was having a little nap. My worries were.. I suppose still are!

  • He doesn’t respond to his name, no matter how loud you shout it. Though hears things like doors creaking etc. At the start I was worried he was deaf, until I realized it was more a selective hearing thing. (this is getting checked on Monday though as they have to clear his hearing before checking everything else)
  • He is 21 months and doesn’t say a word, he babbles a bit, but no words or sounds that mean anything to him. He used to say dada/dog etc and knew what they meant.. now they have disappeared.
  • He tiptoe walks, a lot. Like right up nearly as high as he can get.
  • Extremely fussy with the foods he eats.. Doesn’t really like lumps or bumps in his food.
  • Doesn’t brings toys over to show me/his dad or his sister
  • Isn’t keen on his sister sitting beside him, when she does he will try to bite her/pull her hair.
  • Very little eye contact, or response to emotions from others.
  • Head banging against a wall/floor (very upsetting to experience =()

As I told her these she asked me had I been on google and were these all big worries or just little things.. when I told her that I used to work with children with additional needs she started to listen a little more, and then when he woke up and demonstrated to her several of these things she then said that I was right to have a list written. She then plowed on to serious mode.. She told me that she hoped she would come here and see him and tell me that she would come back and see him in a few more months and that he would grow out of the things he did. Unfortunately she told me this wasn’t the case and she wanted to write down reports etc and get them sent off that night to get him on the list to be seen by the child developmental team as soon as possible. . This was at the start of July.

I have had a lot of time to take it all in, think things over and over again, worry, get upset, get annoyed and most emotions possible really. This is a real tough thing to be going through and to be left in the dark with when the ball will start rolling. I have his audio on Monday so at least that is something but I am yet to have an appointment from the child developmental team. I am going to ask them when I am in on Monday if they have a clue about time frame.. I think the not knowing when it is all going to start is the hardest.. Especially when I know that when the ball has started rolling it wont be straight forward and that it will be a long time after many appointments to know what is going on.

As his mum, I just want to make it all ok everything be fine and one day for him to wake and to have came on leaps and bounds. Be talking and everything.. but as the days and weeks go past, I know that wont be anytime soon. It hurts a lot, but I have to keep my brave face on, keep smiling and positive for my family.

One thing I have found through all this though is that you constantly seem to be on the look out for things that are different/worrying/wrong etc.. So I have tried to concentrate on the positive and enjoy what makes him, him. The way when he laughs, its from deep within him, he has the most wonderful and infections laugh and when you have discovered what makes him laugh you can do it 1000 times over and he will find it just as funny as he did the first time! How when you hand him something new he will inspect it in great detail, turning it over and over again in his hands looking at all the tiny little details on it. That he empties out the whole box of hot wheels to find the one with the red roof and then will grab any other one to have one in each hand.. then will go to the table and play with them for ages without anything distracting.. unless his sister goes near him! πŸ˜›  That he will pick the tiny bits off the carpet and place them in my hand and will do this until he thinks they have all gone! When he climbs up beside his sister and for the brief moment will sit beside her and how excited and happy she gets by this, and how at the park he will find a bridge, and go back and forth across this bridge the whole time we spend there chuckling away to himself. He does a whole load more that makes me so proud and privileged to have him as my wonderful son. I love him, and I always will, no matter what the outcome is.

WeeOhana. xx

 

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Pregnancy, Christmas & fun!

I really can’t get any inspiration on what to blog about…or inspiration to do anything for that matter.. But hey! Suppose that’s what the final run of pregnancy is like! Feeling like a beached whale at the moment! Just feel so large and heavy! on he final count down now! Tomorrow I will be 35 weeks, so 5 weeks till my due date, but baby is measuring 2+ weeks bigger, so I am up again on the first of December for another scan! The consultant also said she would check me to see if my body is ready to go into labour and if I am give me the sweep and possibly break my waters too if I am! So that’s pretty exciting! Means baby will be measuring 39+ if he keeps growing at the rate he is, so least that means he will be a healthy weight! They are doing it early for me because of the pain from my spd and because he is measuring big, the lady seemed quite concerned with his size considering that I am normally quite a small girl, she said that I have small hips etc, so him being large will be why I am so sore! I’m super excited to think that in less then three weeks I may have my baby in my arms! How mad is that.. I am so not ready.. But I don’t think I will be now until he is born! We have everything that we need for him ready and waiting now! It’s just a mater of getting him here! πŸ˜€ writing about it is actually getting me a little bit excited! Recently though I have had a few bouts of braxton hicks.. Which are for anyone who is unaware, like practice contractions so to speak! So apparently that shows that my body is ready! It also makes the whole giving birth thing and the pain sink in… I’m buggered I think the hubby is in for a real shock! Could see he was finding it hard and he didn’t want to leave when I was having a few BH, which is ever so lovely! πŸ™‚ made me feel a little bit special though I did make him go to work, as will need all the help after and don’t want to waste his precious days off! He is such a super star, was at my mum and dads house today as he had worked nights and came home to the house sparkling! I really don’t give him enough credit for all that he does, I do adore him so much πŸ™‚

The other day me and my little one made chocolate croissants for us all to have as breakfast! It was actually lovely all just sitting down and having breakfast together and she had such a laugh making them.. We did cheat a bit, it was a pack type idea where you just added the chocolate and rolled them up! Though it was scrummy and lots of fun for her! She loves baking and we did used to do it quite a bit together, but obviously at the moment it is quite hard to do this by myself, without a little one running about! The last time we properly baked together she poured flour all over the kitchen floor and had a blast making little foot prints in it.. So I think I’ll leave baking with her again for when the little one is here and having a nap! Then if she does decide to pour flour everywhere we can have a bit of a laugh in it rather than me panicking at how to clear it up when I can’t really brush the kitchen floor at the moment!

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We are getting all excited about Christmas in our house at the moment! Mainly because of everywhere you go there is a Christmas tree, tinsel, Christmas decorations etc! Also it’s the first Christmas where my little angel understands (more or less) the whole Santa idea, presents, decorating and the likes! Today we went to a shopping centre to grab a few bits.. Every shop window she had to stop and excitedly jump up and down on the spot at the snowman, Santa, gingerbread man, lights or anything at all Christmassy! It did mean it took us a while to get to the bits we wanted to actually do, but it was so beautiful seeing how excited she got and how amazing it must be to be that small, young and innocent! It also though must feel like Christmas takes forever.. Because it is in the shops forever before Santa comes! It’s a bit depressing for me, I already have all her presents wrapped, and a few for baby brother so that she doesn’t ask why Santa didn’t come! Normally I am an Xmas eve/week wrapper and love wrapping them in front of a Christmas movie, with the fire on and a little drink! Obviously this year I couldn’t leave it to do that, just incase they decide they don’t want to induce me and baby decides to be very untimely and come on Christmas Eve or close! It also means that I won’t have to be worrying about wrapping when I have a tiny baby, or sitting on the floor etc.. Which those of us who have had babies know isn’t the comfiest of things to do πŸ˜‰ all her things are wrapped and safe in a bag, so I can just say to anyone to grab them tv just incase I can’t! Which would be horrible, but I’ll deal with that when and if it happens!

We have our Christmas tree going up day all planned! 30th of November! πŸ˜€ mainly because If I do go in on the first and there like yeah, your having a baby tomorrow or whatever I don’t have to worry about that when we get home.. Also because I can’t wait and the little one is super excited! The next time hubby is off we are going to go up to the disney store and purchasing some new cute decorations, then depending on how I feel maybe hunt out a few other cute bits and pieces! On the note of Christmas decorations.. I got the cutest Mickey Mouse nut cracker the other day off Amazon! He is amazing.. Though I don’t think he would serve much purpose as a nut cracker.. So I’m glad I bought him as a decoration! πŸ˜€ He is going to be one of those decorations that you keep for years and bring out every year! We aren’t ones to have a colour coordinated Christmas tree, we just go for complete and utter random ones, and ones that mean things to us and so forth! we really need a new artificial Christmas tree, but going to have to wait till next year for that as obviously have a few more important things this year πŸ˜‰
What do you think of Mickey Mouse then? I’m in love πŸ˜‰
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I hope you have all been keeping well?
When will you be putting up your Christmas tree?
Oh and here’s my most recent paper cut! Not very Christmassy.. but I think its cute! What about you??
Weeohana xxx

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Halloween, Christmas, worries & stress!

Following on from the last post; my hubby looked at me like I was mad when I told him my concerns about trick or treating, so he compromised and said just the street we live in, so Compromising is always good, especially when it is with parenting, both parents have to agree on what is to happen! Unless of course it is something one feels very strongly about or is dangerous.
So out they set to go, I decided to come with them to the first house as we know our neighbours, obviously! They answered we had a quick chat, she got some sweets much to her delight and Carried on… For only one more person to answer there door! The people who live opposite that have just moved in! It’s lovely because they have a little girl who is just a little older than My squirt, and the mum is also pregnant and due in January so it’s really nice! In a funny sort of way, She then hadn’t been trick or treating! I then ended up feeling quite bad for her as she was all excited about it… So we went out for a drive and visited a few people who we knew! They all enjoyed seeing her dressed up and she loved getting some more sweets and compliments on her outfit! We went out to buy a pumpkin on Halloween, but all the shops were sold out! One of my hubbies friend who is a green grocer, said that the lack of rain had made it very difficult for farmers to grow pumpkins so there was a shortage! We hunted everywhere.. Just as we were giving up and on the way home, we spotted a grocers and thought let’s stop and have an ask then, we have tried everywhere! Off the hubby went, coming back ten mins later with ‘blue prince’ pumpkins! They were nearly the same as pumpkins… Just smaller.. And white! They were super cute and different! They were a bit small to do any sort of funky design.. But the funniest bit for the little ones is emptying out all the insides! She had great fun scooping it all out.. Putting it into a bowl, putting it to another bowl, rubbing it in her hands, tipping it over her hair and all of that fun stuff! We had lots of fun, and finished the carving off with a toffee apple! How could anyone refuse a toffee apple! My little one ate it and half way through proceeded to tell me “best taste ever!” She then quickly went back to chomping away, she loved it! All in all, it was a nice wee day with a bit of a difference than other days! My little one had a blast and that’s all that matters! πŸ˜€
Here is the outcome of the pumpkins;
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CHRISTMAS!!
So now Halloween has passed… I’m so excited for Christmas… Though the other half says no Christmas till December… Which sucks! I’ll convince him to compromise like I did for Halloween right πŸ˜‰ 25th November sounds good to me.. A month before Christmas .. He can’t complain about that right? πŸ˜‰
Though before Christmas we also have baby excitement! πŸ˜€ nuts to think how close Christmas is and knowing we will have a baby before Christmas.. We need to get prepared!!

I don’t feel prepared at all for this baby.. Furniture is arriving next week though and we have the cot it just needs built, so we are pretty prepared as I can’t think of what we are missing! I think it’s because I am totally occupied with looking after my little three year old and then trying to carry on as normal as possible with the spd! I think with your first one, pregnancy feels like a lifetime, your prepared and have everything bought and sorted a lot earlier because you have nothing else to preoccupy you and so forth! I though don’t think anything can prepare you for labour and actually having a newborn! If it’s your first or your fourth I think it will still always be a big, big change and they are all different so you don’t know what is going to happen! I’m panicking about how my three year old is going to deal with all the huge changes to her life, how I’m going to cope about spending my time with two of them, rather than just my little sparkly princess! I don’t want her to feel jealous, pushed out, left behind.. All those feelings I know that she will! :.( I am panicking about the little baba too.. Thinking I may end up pushing him out because I’m so nervous and worried about pushing my little girl out :.( she is my shinning star, my first born, my little squishy. .
I think I am really panicking that my hubby and his family will just start to push her out, she isn’t his you see. Though we have been together since she was nine month old, she doesn’t know any different, he wouldn’t have it any different either. He adores her so much, he wouldn’t know what to do without her. I know that he won’t push her aside, and he has told me he won’t etc, but I think it’s bound to be a worry right? Have any of you been in that situation!? How did it pan out? I’m sure I’m just being silly, hormonal, over thinking and a typical worrier! It will all be fantastic and she is super excited to be a big sister and for some reason she keeps telling me she can’t wait to change baby brothers bum… Well Darling, you crack on with that, because it’s really not the best bit πŸ˜‰ I’m excited to have him here finally, and be able to drive and walk normally again! He has plenty of blankets, so I can’t wait to get out with my little princess, take her to the park, nice long walks, and all that fun stuff again! Feels like forever since I have had proper time with her not in the house! So I’m going to make a huge effort after baby, getting out as much as we can, rain or shine! I think having this spd has made me appreciate things a lot more, like being able to drive, go to the park, have a dance around the living room with her! I’m going to make sure and embrace and do it all, I’m going to make sure I’m a super duper mummy to both my little cuties! Plan lots of fun things, and random things to do.. Like go for a walk and find six leafs, spot three blue cars and two dogs.. Or something to that extent if you get my drift πŸ˜‰ lol!

Anyway.. I’ll stop blabbering on!
Must keep positive thoughts!
Oh and consultant next Monday, wonder what will be the outcome and if this little man is still on the big side ><
Health visitor tomorrow.. But they just talk at you and say hi before baby is here, right?

Love & Care
WeeOhana xx

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Birthday, growing up, nursery- catch up

My sister has taken my little one to the farm so finally I have got some time to blog and sit down to myself! Sorry it has been so long, I have just been so tired at night, with this horrible pregnancy malarky and sorting out the house! My little two year old has now turned three, she has now got a ‘big girl’ room and we have painted the nursery and started to sort all we have bought! I’ll fill you in on it all!

Let’s start with the ‘big girl’ room! We wanted to get her moved and into it a good time before baby appeared so she didn’t think she was getting kicked out of her room for baby, which technically is the case, but she got moved to a bigger room and it’s all pretty and lovely so it was a good move for her πŸ˜‰ though we all know how kids think and I didn’t want her having it in her head that she had to move with no choice etc, so we let her decide on the colour and so forth! She choose a lovely colour, it’s called Candyfloss! Which yes, is probably why she chose it as she loves Candyfloss.. Or anything food related to be honest! She has now informed me that her Candyfloss walls are very tasty … I’m not sure if she literally think that it tastes like Candyfloss just because of the name, but she loves it so that’s all that matters! Phew new bedding, light shade, rug and beanbag are also pink with brightly coloured owls on them, which she also loves (she’s easily pleased!) we couldn’t decide whether or not to put the baby gate on her door to stop her coming out every five minutes at bed time, but we decided we would rather battle and get her to learn to stay in her room before the baby gets her, rather than having to take her back several times each night and also be dealing with a baby! It’s going ok so far, she stays in most nights.. With a little chocolate bribery πŸ˜‰ though I think everyone with kids knows that bribery is the best plan! She has taken to her new room and being a big girl very well! I’m so proud of how great she has taken to it! She’s such a super girl πŸ˜€

It was her third birthday on Saturday, we had such a lovely day! I took cocodamol before so that I would be good to stand and interact a bit and it was a great choice! (I promise not to moan about pain in this post ;)) she had a frozen themed party! We just had a frozen bouncy castle out the back in our garden and then some homemade cupcakes with frozen toppers and some other tasty homemade snacks! I rather enjoy baking! πŸ™‚ my sister, myself, my mum and my friend got into the frozen spirit with frozen tshirts, make up, nails, hair and so forth! It was great fun! I’m not sure my three year old really for the whole effort we had put in, but we had great fun and felt the part!
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Don’t we look fab πŸ˜‰
I still can’t get over the fact that my little one is three.. It only seems like a year ago that she was born.. But then other times it feels like she has been here forever because I really cannot or want to imagine what life would be like without her! I love her little quizzes and so forth that I get, her little random questioning on such real life situations! For example she has realised about death and dying.. Yes very morbid,by but a real life situation that she does need to know about. She understands that people grow old and die and that is normally how it happens and so forth. I’m glad that she understands and all, she just seems so little to be understanding and questioning about these things! She’s growing up far to fast! Though I do much prefer this stage than the baby stage where they can’t really do to much at all and just cry and poo! Lol! At least now she can interact, have conversations, enjoy what we do and appreciate things! It’s fantastic! I want her to stay at this stage for ever though.. But I’m sure I will always think that.. Until she gets to be about nine and then the rebelling and so forth starts! I’m not to sure how I will deal with that.
Here is her enjoying her cake on her birthday, I must say she was super spoilt by everyone and it made me see how many people do actually care and appreciate her!

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Now for an update on the pregnancy, nursery etc! πŸ˜€ I’ll try and not moan to much πŸ˜‰
My hubby painted the nursery the other day, now I wanted a lovely little baby blue, but he wanted this colour called Azure so I thought, ok why not doesn’t look to bad on the colour match thing.. Then when he has started to paint I almost felt like crying.. I hated the colour and was so annoyed, hormones took over and I had to walk away before I started to ball! To me it was more like florescent blue! I let hubby carry on though and just kept thinking to myself that I can paint over if it is still horrible to me after a few months! Now a few days on I actually am starting to like it, thankfully! Though I wouldn’t describe it as azure blue.. More like Smurf blue! It goes well though with the bedding and so forth we have for him! We have went for a sea sort of theme? The bedding is called Bubble Blue from mamas and papas! It is so cute, has little whales, jelly fish and crabs on it! I love it and it feels so nice! It came with a fleece blanket and it has taken a lot for me not to just use the blanket for myself! Lol! We have ordered the furniture for his nursery and it will be here in two weeks! We are using my little girls cot so going to build that soon and then when the new furniture is here I can’t wait to put all the clothes in and sort out all we have.. We have sure bought a lot! Lol!
I had a scan there a week or two back, to check on baby and to make my consultant aware of my spd and how I have been feeling! When they scanned me they said that baby is looking great, though possibly a bit big, as he was measuring 4lb2, and 2 weeks ahead of what my due date is supposed to be. Though after 20 week scan they won’t move your due date! My consultant was lovely too! I am having a lot of bother with my spd, mainly because it is affecting my little one.. We had a lovely sunny day yesterday and she was desperate to get to the park, I felt so bad not being able to take her! So anyway, when I was up at the hospital we were talking about how I was feeling and so forth, she said it was obvious I was in a lot of pain, and that they aren’t unsympathetic. They are now going to scan me every two weeks and see how baby is growing, because another factor to my spd being so bad would be because of the baby being so big! I’m a pretty small framed person normal too, so my body isn’t good afford carrying a big baby! They have said that at 38 weeks they will check me and if my body is ready they will break my waters and then and there and I will have baby. This would be fantastic! At the moment I am counting down days to be out of pain, not to have a baby which is wrong! So it’s great that they have told me this.. I just want to make sure.p I’m ready for 38 weeks though I’m not sure how! Any tips? Lol! I am back up next week and I am going to make sure that my consultant write that down in my maternity notes, just incase I get someone else and they don’t know what she has agreed or told me! I am also going to ask her if she will put down that If at 38 weeks and I’m not ready will she induce me at 39 weeks, if I know for sure that I will be induced at 39 weeks, I think I will be able to start to enjoy this pregnancy more! It is scary to think though that if I go to 40 weeks.. Which fingers crossed they will help me out before I have 8 weeks! If I am ready at 38 weeks that there is only 6 weeks! So I’m desperately trying to sort stuff.. As it all of a sudden seems to have just appeared that we are on a final countdown! It’s not nice though because I am desperate to old things and I am seriously nesting and can’t do to much about the house! I brushed the kitchen floor and did the surfaces the other day.. Which I would have done most days before this and I couldn’t move for the rest of the day without excruciating pain! It was mental! So trying to do the whole nesting, sorting baby stuff, sorting house ready for baby isn’t the greatest!

On a final note, because I know a few of you enjoy seeing it, here is some of the paper cutting that I have been doing! If you would like a link to the templates just ask and I will happily send them! If any of my followers or anyone likes these, hit me up and I may be nice enough to send you one πŸ˜‰ infact I will be nice enough, we could become pen pals! πŸ˜€ oh I would love a pen pal! πŸ˜€
So here’s a wee photo of some of them, let me know what you think please! These are all other people’s templates πŸ™‚ I’m not confident enough to draw my own yet!

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Pictures aren’t the greatest, but you get the idea! πŸ™‚
Would love to hear from you guys!
WeeOhana x

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Guilt & pain

How have we all been?
I’m currently in bed, over joyed that my little one is back to sleeping through the night again rather than her waking at 3:30am fun she was doing recently! Unfortunately not a lot can be said about my sleep.. I seem to wake up every half hour and then try to get comfy for half hour.. Then the same routine again, and again! Which as I’m sure you are aware.. Isn’t fun! It’s leaving me tired and even more down in the dumps with this pain as I’m exhausted and in a great deal of pain try to entertain my nearly three year old!

I have restored to doing a lot of sticker books with her, or just sticking stickers on a page! She loves it, and will actually sit still and do this! She isn’t much of a grade A at sitting still.. But stickers seem to be one thing that she doesn’t mind sitting to do! It’s fab because it means she can sit beside me on the sofa and do it, so I’m semi comfortable.. And she’s not running about like a looney while I sit and feel useless because I can’t chase her about the house and so forth like I normally would have done! I have been quite impressed at how well she is able to find where what sticker goes and how precise she is at putting it down the right way and covering all the white! She will have several attempts to make sure she gets it just right! She’s such a wee star, fingers crossed she keeps it up when this baby comes πŸ™‚

I’m starting to feel really guilty, but I’m sure it’s probably normal.. I’m in a great deal of pain at the moment with this spd, I have constant pain all night and all day, even if I take painkillers. So what’s the point in taking them if they will only make the pain go a tiny bit and will also mean that baby will be dependant on them and I will have an extremely grouchy baby! If they made me pain free I would probably be more willing to take them, but they don’t, I still can’t do much when I take them, so what’s the point! Anyway.. I feel guilty because instead of counting down the days/weeks until baby is here, I’m now counting down until the pain is gone.. I’m feeling more excited about the pain going away than my baby being here :/ I’m sure it’s normal for people who have suffered from this or some other pain … Or at least I hope because I’m starting to feel really mean! I’m really beating myself up about it at the moment and can’t seem to rid the thought from my mind, it’s terrible.. This is meant to be an exciting time where it all slows down because baby is coming soon and because you just can’t wait to have your baby! Time has slowed down for me because if no one comes round, I’m stuck in the house all day, I’m sick and tired of this pain, I literally am tired of this pain because it is preventing me from sleeping and I am constantly exhausted.. I’ll probably get more sleep when the baby is actually here and this pain has gone!

Also walking about like a flipping penguin and getting people looking at me funny isn’t the nicest of things.. Went to the shopping centre today to get some food and so forth.. Took me nearly triple the time to walk through the place than normal! Ahh!!

I have been signed off work, so there is so much I want to do around the house… Nesting is really kicking in! Wanna know the worst part about it… I can’t blooming do anything! Putting a wash on/sorting a wash is a very long processes at the moment as I have to stop several times because of pain! A task that would normally take 2 minutes now takes about an hour… An hour to sort and put a wash on.. Joys. I want to be sorting my little girls room and going through all the baby stuff to see if we need anything more and going out to buy all pretty paints and getting excited about painting new rooms… But I just can’t get excited about it.. Infact, it upsets me even thinking about doing those things.. Because I physically can’t paint, or sort.. And with going to choose the paint, hey that will be another trip out with pain involved! Though j suppose sitting in the house in pain, or going out isn’t much different!

I think it’s quite hard for someone who hasn’t been in this position to understand what it’s like .. To be going from being able to do everything, to near enough nothing. It’s actually really upsetting, and if I beat myself up about it and blame myself much more.. I’m gonna end up locking myself in a room till this baby is here and hiding from the world! I have a funny feeling though it’s going to make me even more protective of the baby and letting people hold him, just because it will have been such a long awaited thing to get him out so I can be pain free and because *fingers crossed* I’ll finally be able to do stuff again and will want to do it all after having felt so useless recently!

.. Anyway I’ll stop ranting as I can hear my little girl awakening and seeing as it takes me a long time to get it of bed.. I may as well start before she starts shouting!!
I hope your all better than me!
Love; WeeOhana x

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Candyfloss, doctors, holiday!

I would like to start with an apology! I started off really well blogging every night, then on the weekend I was away on holiday and before that I started to get excruciating pain so was trying to get that sorted and with runs to the doctors and so forth I just couldn’t find the time to blog as was exhausted at the end of the day!

So would you like the happy holiday bit or pain bit explained first?
I think I’ll go for the pain first then end with the happy bit!

I started back to work at the start of September when the kids all came back from summer, I can’t remember if I have said before but I am a classroom assistant! Not the most strenuous of jobs but it has sent me on a downward spiral! I first of all got a pm extremely itchy rash and went to the doctors to be told that it could be my liver and baby may need to be delivered soon, which of course made me painc! Though the doctor told me to keep calm and wait for blood test results.. They came back all clear thankfully minus a High white blood cell count, which is a sign of infection so doctor said the rash must just be a wee viral thing and that’s why they were high. This was great relief, and thankfully the itching has gone away a lot now but still is there, though isn’t affecting me at all compared to my new problem! I have been told I have pelvic girdle pain / symphysis pubis dysfunction (SPD). To anyone who hasn’t experienced this when pregnant, you are so lucky! To anyone that has.. Hello my fellow penguins! I currently feel so useless.. I can’t even drive or lift my little one onto the toilet which of course for a recently toilet trained little one doesn’t make life too easy! It is such an excruciating pain! I have today been to physio and been given a very attractive large tubugrip to hold me together! It seriously feels like my hip is just gonna fall out of place at times! I am back next week for her to asses how it is helping or not and what next steps to take! She told me the joyful news that they can’t stop the pain, and yes it is going to get worse but they can give me things to help ease it.. Just the news I wanted! At least I’m in the final stretch now, but it’s going to be the longest 12 weeks ever with this pain and being basically stuck at home constantly when the other half is in work! I think it started when I went back to work as you are constantly bending down to small tables, sitting on small chairs, running back and forth to the photocopier etc! So I have been signed off work now till my maternity leave starts! I really dislike the feeling of being so useless to my little one.. I can’t even take her to the park.. And trust me my little one has a load of energy and needs to waste it somewhere so her being stuck in a house with a crippled mummy isn’t to fun for her either! She asks me every morning am I better yet, and feeds me sweets to make me better! Getting fed sweets is awesome.. But still heartbreaking seeing how upset she gets about and how desperate she is to make me better! Anyone else experienced this and care to share a few tips in coping!? I’m open to try everything!!

Onto the happiness and to stop whinging! My parents, me, the hubby and my little one had booked a long weekend away, before all this started and I didn’t wanna change or cancel it, as going away is far more relaxing than being at home anyway! It was a three hour drive and with a couple of stops along the way we all made it safe and sound! We went to a fantastic family friendly hotel, they had a play park, a soft play room and lovely surroundings which is just perfect for little ones! Oh and a swimming pool which she had an absolute blast in with my dad! We went to a little town close by that had an aquarium, and we were lucky enough to go a day that the octonauts were there! My little one adored it as would most two year olds that have seen this program! There was question all through the aquarium, you got to touch a starfish, and finally meet them! Oh and not to forget seeing nemo was a big highlight too! It was luckily enough a lovely sunny day after so we went for a short walk (as that’s all I could manage unfortunately) and got some candy Floss! I’ll put pictures below to show how much it was enjoyed!
Then the next day me and my mum got a lovely wee treatment in the spa and it was super relaxing and very nice as I didn’t have to move to much! Lol! My hubby took the little one to the play park and for a lovely walk too so she had a ball while I was getting pampered so it made it even nicer!

What I love the most about family friendly hotels with lots of family’s in them is that when you are at the restaurant which is done quite fancy with fancy food, and a great kids menu (batman burger, flounders fish fingers etc) there were also lots of other family’s with little ones! So you don’t kind if they are a little noiser, doesn’t put you on edge and super nervous of your little one spoiling someone else’s romantic dinner as they sat the couples and people without kids in a different area! By the end of the meal all of the kids from all the tables ended up sitting in a circle playing with there sticker books and colouring in! We then arranged to see a few of them in the swimming pool the next morning, so it was jut lovely for all the kids! Meant the kids enjoyed dinner and the adults got to chat a bit with who they had come with while they were entertained by each other! Or was a fantastic hotel and a lovely weekend! Just wish I hadn’t have been so sore so I could have enjoyed it a bit more! Amellia keeps asking for Grampy to take her back though so she enjoyed and that’s all that matters!

Here are the candy floss pictures! Sorry it has been a while and going to be back to blogging frequently again, especially seeing as I’m off work now and sitting about a lot! Hope you are all well! πŸ™‚ WeeOhana!!

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