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Alarm & Waffle!

Once again, the alarm on the house across the road is going off!! It seems to go off at least once a day recently and it is really starting to bug me! Not only does it tend to go off at this time 7:30pm, so whenever my little one is nearly asleep in bed so it startles her and then takes me an extra half an hour to go back down, it make the most irritating noise ever! it goes straight through you! ='[  It has got so bad I have contemplated breaking it in the middle of the night so I don’t have to listen to that rancid noise anymore!

Moving swiftly on… I have bought the most amazing bedding in the world! Not only is it kinda Christmassy orientated .. its made from brushed cotton! It is so snugly and just lovely and warm! It feels like you are getting a giant hug from a teddy bear every time you get into bed and even better, it feels super lovely and fluffy and doesn’t even make you overheat! I was worried before I bought it that it would make me super warm in bed, and with being pregnant I’m already over heating in bed when I sleep with nothing on! So I thought, pah lets buy it anyway and see! Aw it feels so snugly and lovely… I think I’m in love with my bedding… But look at how pretty it is!
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isn’t it just marvelous! Pretty little reindeer’s and just so … haha I’ll calm down on the whole bedding love malarkey!

 

Hmm.. now that I went on a little note about my bedding I have completely forgot what I was going to blog about tonight! Currently sitting munching on a chocolate Orange with toffee peices inside it… its pretty delicious to be honest! If you haven’t tried one before you really should! Get yourself out to Tesco while they are on offer ;]

I got my old laptop working today and i turned it on… it had like 100000 songs on it, it was amazing because I fond lots of old music! It reminded me of when I was younger, I wouldn’t have went anywhere without headphones in! Even down to the kitchen without music was a big expedition for me! Music got me through everything in life, no matter what it was! Now; I hardly ever get to listen to music, bar nursery rhymes! 😛 What gets me through now is my beautiful little family! They are just fantastic, they always make me smile and just feel so special and loved! =] Thats what family is for right! I never knew how fantastic being a mummy would be! Mind you, no idea how im going to split my time between two kids, but loads of people do it for 3/4 or even more children! So I will be fine, I’m super mum right ;]

I would love to not have to go back to work and to get to spend all my time with my little munchkins! Though I will just have to wait and see how we cope and if it is even a choice for me to not go back to work, even until they both start work! Suppose lots of mums would like that though, it means you get to spend all your time with your precious little family! Though we will just have to wait and see!

Can’t believe how close it is that we will be changing from a three person family, to a four person family! My little girl tonight came up to me with a key and put it up to my tummy and went ” mummy that’s your tummy unlocked for baby brother to come out tonight” … Does she know something I don’t? lol! I found it ultra cute though, it shows that she does really understand it all and is obviously excited for baby, otherwise she wouldn’t be unlocking me for him to come out? right? I’m so glad she hasn’t asked me how he gets out, would be an awkward one to answer.. think I may just reply with “magic!” What did you tell your little ones? She knows that I have to go to the hospital and that she is getting to come to the hospital and she is all excited for getting to bring baby brother home! & more importantly.. shes super excited for her promised McDonalds.. lol!! Typical three year old! ;]

YAY! The alarm has finally stopped going mental!! =D

My belly button is now poking out.. so my belly looks like a giant boob with a nipple! This baby is pushing my poor little body to its limit!

Anyway, I still can’t remember what I had in my head to blog about! So I will stop waffling as I don’t think its going to come back to me! Time to panic about packing my hospital bag, any advice on what needs to go in it? Anything you took with you that would suggest I take? Look forward to hearing some wild and wonderful ideas! 😛
WeeOhana xx

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Pregnancy, Christmas & fun!

I really can’t get any inspiration on what to blog about…or inspiration to do anything for that matter.. But hey! Suppose that’s what the final run of pregnancy is like! Feeling like a beached whale at the moment! Just feel so large and heavy! on he final count down now! Tomorrow I will be 35 weeks, so 5 weeks till my due date, but baby is measuring 2+ weeks bigger, so I am up again on the first of December for another scan! The consultant also said she would check me to see if my body is ready to go into labour and if I am give me the sweep and possibly break my waters too if I am! So that’s pretty exciting! Means baby will be measuring 39+ if he keeps growing at the rate he is, so least that means he will be a healthy weight! They are doing it early for me because of the pain from my spd and because he is measuring big, the lady seemed quite concerned with his size considering that I am normally quite a small girl, she said that I have small hips etc, so him being large will be why I am so sore! I’m super excited to think that in less then three weeks I may have my baby in my arms! How mad is that.. I am so not ready.. But I don’t think I will be now until he is born! We have everything that we need for him ready and waiting now! It’s just a mater of getting him here! 😀 writing about it is actually getting me a little bit excited! Recently though I have had a few bouts of braxton hicks.. Which are for anyone who is unaware, like practice contractions so to speak! So apparently that shows that my body is ready! It also makes the whole giving birth thing and the pain sink in… I’m buggered I think the hubby is in for a real shock! Could see he was finding it hard and he didn’t want to leave when I was having a few BH, which is ever so lovely! 🙂 made me feel a little bit special though I did make him go to work, as will need all the help after and don’t want to waste his precious days off! He is such a super star, was at my mum and dads house today as he had worked nights and came home to the house sparkling! I really don’t give him enough credit for all that he does, I do adore him so much 🙂

The other day me and my little one made chocolate croissants for us all to have as breakfast! It was actually lovely all just sitting down and having breakfast together and she had such a laugh making them.. We did cheat a bit, it was a pack type idea where you just added the chocolate and rolled them up! Though it was scrummy and lots of fun for her! She loves baking and we did used to do it quite a bit together, but obviously at the moment it is quite hard to do this by myself, without a little one running about! The last time we properly baked together she poured flour all over the kitchen floor and had a blast making little foot prints in it.. So I think I’ll leave baking with her again for when the little one is here and having a nap! Then if she does decide to pour flour everywhere we can have a bit of a laugh in it rather than me panicking at how to clear it up when I can’t really brush the kitchen floor at the moment!

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We are getting all excited about Christmas in our house at the moment! Mainly because of everywhere you go there is a Christmas tree, tinsel, Christmas decorations etc! Also it’s the first Christmas where my little angel understands (more or less) the whole Santa idea, presents, decorating and the likes! Today we went to a shopping centre to grab a few bits.. Every shop window she had to stop and excitedly jump up and down on the spot at the snowman, Santa, gingerbread man, lights or anything at all Christmassy! It did mean it took us a while to get to the bits we wanted to actually do, but it was so beautiful seeing how excited she got and how amazing it must be to be that small, young and innocent! It also though must feel like Christmas takes forever.. Because it is in the shops forever before Santa comes! It’s a bit depressing for me, I already have all her presents wrapped, and a few for baby brother so that she doesn’t ask why Santa didn’t come! Normally I am an Xmas eve/week wrapper and love wrapping them in front of a Christmas movie, with the fire on and a little drink! Obviously this year I couldn’t leave it to do that, just incase they decide they don’t want to induce me and baby decides to be very untimely and come on Christmas Eve or close! It also means that I won’t have to be worrying about wrapping when I have a tiny baby, or sitting on the floor etc.. Which those of us who have had babies know isn’t the comfiest of things to do 😉 all her things are wrapped and safe in a bag, so I can just say to anyone to grab them tv just incase I can’t! Which would be horrible, but I’ll deal with that when and if it happens!

We have our Christmas tree going up day all planned! 30th of November! 😀 mainly because If I do go in on the first and there like yeah, your having a baby tomorrow or whatever I don’t have to worry about that when we get home.. Also because I can’t wait and the little one is super excited! The next time hubby is off we are going to go up to the disney store and purchasing some new cute decorations, then depending on how I feel maybe hunt out a few other cute bits and pieces! On the note of Christmas decorations.. I got the cutest Mickey Mouse nut cracker the other day off Amazon! He is amazing.. Though I don’t think he would serve much purpose as a nut cracker.. So I’m glad I bought him as a decoration! 😀 He is going to be one of those decorations that you keep for years and bring out every year! We aren’t ones to have a colour coordinated Christmas tree, we just go for complete and utter random ones, and ones that mean things to us and so forth! we really need a new artificial Christmas tree, but going to have to wait till next year for that as obviously have a few more important things this year 😉
What do you think of Mickey Mouse then? I’m in love 😉
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I hope you have all been keeping well?
When will you be putting up your Christmas tree?
Oh and here’s my most recent paper cut! Not very Christmassy.. but I think its cute! What about you??
Weeohana xxx

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Blah,blah,blah

Even though I am in a great deal of pain, and my bump is somewhat massive and still growing, I just don’t seem to feel pregnant! I am finding it really strange mainly because of how this pregnancy has gone, hasn’t been smooth sailing at all like my first and has been constantly reminding me that I am pregnant. I mean, I know I’m going to have a baby, it just doesn’t feel real! its confusing to explain.. I’m sure your probably all reading this thinking, what is she going on about! I suppose the easiest way to explain it, is I know I’m having a baby, but it doesn’t feel like the baby will be here in less than two months!

Today to try and help myself realise that a baby will be in this house shortly, I built & made the cot up! Luckily my lovely mum came round to help me, because with my SPD I really couldn’t have managed to do it by myself while trying to contain a three year old too! It is very upsetting and makes me feel very weak and pathetic that I can’t do these simple tasks! I also think that is another reason why I don’t feel like the baby will be here soon, or at least am in denial about the baby being here so soon because I can’t do things to prepare the house and all that fun jazz! I must say though my mum and my family have been such a fantastic help through all this! I really do appreciate all they do for me! At the moment I am relying on my mum a great deal because my hubby works shifts, which sucks in these kind of situations. well actually it sucks full stop, but I can’t complain because when he is here, he is fantastic its just the trying to get him here and awake! My mum though really is my best friend, she is just so wonderful! She has been taking me wherever I need to/fancy going, taking my little one to and from play school and plenty of other things. I think without her help at the moment I would end up just staying in bed all day watching DVDS with my little girl eating rubbish all the time! Though now that I think of doing that, it actually sounds like a good plan! =D My sister and my dad have also been great, as they have taken my little one out on adventures and stopped her from being trapped inside. Taking her out also helps to waste her energy.. she is very energetic for a little one… she would run circles all day constantly while talking if you let her!

Anyway, I got distracted sorry! So we built the cot and got the bedding put on to it, it is such a cute little themem and I am even happier with it now it is on the cot! I loved it when we bought it.. obviously, or I wouldn’t have bought it, but now that it is on and all set up, it is so beautiful! Here is a little picture so that you guys can admire it too!

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isn’t the turtle just wonderful! I have the matching changing mat, towel, and all that kind of jazz that you need for a bay! 😛  Now I am just on the count down till the wardrobes and the rest arrive! Not long now, they are being delivered on Tuesday! Then I can get the mountain of clothes sorted and his room will start to look like a room, rather than a dumping ground for clothes and the likes!

I didn’t think my bump could get any bigger.. but every morning when I wake up it seems to be getting bigger and my clothes are getting smaller! I’m sure one of these days my tummy is literally going to explode! This morning actually my little girl said the most cutest thing ever, she cuddled into my bump and said “you are going to be the best baby brother, I can’t wait to change your nappy. I love you” How precious ❤ Though if she is interested in changing the nappies, she may work away.. I must admit that isn’t the bit I am most excited for!

Here is my 33+2 bump! I feel huge! =[ what do you think?

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This post has been very random and a bit, different? to my others.
So I hope you still enjoy this! Let me know what you think?

WeeOhana xx

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Halloween, Christmas, worries & stress!

Following on from the last post; my hubby looked at me like I was mad when I told him my concerns about trick or treating, so he compromised and said just the street we live in, so Compromising is always good, especially when it is with parenting, both parents have to agree on what is to happen! Unless of course it is something one feels very strongly about or is dangerous.
So out they set to go, I decided to come with them to the first house as we know our neighbours, obviously! They answered we had a quick chat, she got some sweets much to her delight and Carried on… For only one more person to answer there door! The people who live opposite that have just moved in! It’s lovely because they have a little girl who is just a little older than My squirt, and the mum is also pregnant and due in January so it’s really nice! In a funny sort of way, She then hadn’t been trick or treating! I then ended up feeling quite bad for her as she was all excited about it… So we went out for a drive and visited a few people who we knew! They all enjoyed seeing her dressed up and she loved getting some more sweets and compliments on her outfit! We went out to buy a pumpkin on Halloween, but all the shops were sold out! One of my hubbies friend who is a green grocer, said that the lack of rain had made it very difficult for farmers to grow pumpkins so there was a shortage! We hunted everywhere.. Just as we were giving up and on the way home, we spotted a grocers and thought let’s stop and have an ask then, we have tried everywhere! Off the hubby went, coming back ten mins later with ‘blue prince’ pumpkins! They were nearly the same as pumpkins… Just smaller.. And white! They were super cute and different! They were a bit small to do any sort of funky design.. But the funniest bit for the little ones is emptying out all the insides! She had great fun scooping it all out.. Putting it into a bowl, putting it to another bowl, rubbing it in her hands, tipping it over her hair and all of that fun stuff! We had lots of fun, and finished the carving off with a toffee apple! How could anyone refuse a toffee apple! My little one ate it and half way through proceeded to tell me “best taste ever!” She then quickly went back to chomping away, she loved it! All in all, it was a nice wee day with a bit of a difference than other days! My little one had a blast and that’s all that matters! 😀
Here is the outcome of the pumpkins;
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CHRISTMAS!!
So now Halloween has passed… I’m so excited for Christmas… Though the other half says no Christmas till December… Which sucks! I’ll convince him to compromise like I did for Halloween right 😉 25th November sounds good to me.. A month before Christmas .. He can’t complain about that right? 😉
Though before Christmas we also have baby excitement! 😀 nuts to think how close Christmas is and knowing we will have a baby before Christmas.. We need to get prepared!!

I don’t feel prepared at all for this baby.. Furniture is arriving next week though and we have the cot it just needs built, so we are pretty prepared as I can’t think of what we are missing! I think it’s because I am totally occupied with looking after my little three year old and then trying to carry on as normal as possible with the spd! I think with your first one, pregnancy feels like a lifetime, your prepared and have everything bought and sorted a lot earlier because you have nothing else to preoccupy you and so forth! I though don’t think anything can prepare you for labour and actually having a newborn! If it’s your first or your fourth I think it will still always be a big, big change and they are all different so you don’t know what is going to happen! I’m panicking about how my three year old is going to deal with all the huge changes to her life, how I’m going to cope about spending my time with two of them, rather than just my little sparkly princess! I don’t want her to feel jealous, pushed out, left behind.. All those feelings I know that she will! :.( I am panicking about the little baba too.. Thinking I may end up pushing him out because I’m so nervous and worried about pushing my little girl out :.( she is my shinning star, my first born, my little squishy. .
I think I am really panicking that my hubby and his family will just start to push her out, she isn’t his you see. Though we have been together since she was nine month old, she doesn’t know any different, he wouldn’t have it any different either. He adores her so much, he wouldn’t know what to do without her. I know that he won’t push her aside, and he has told me he won’t etc, but I think it’s bound to be a worry right? Have any of you been in that situation!? How did it pan out? I’m sure I’m just being silly, hormonal, over thinking and a typical worrier! It will all be fantastic and she is super excited to be a big sister and for some reason she keeps telling me she can’t wait to change baby brothers bum… Well Darling, you crack on with that, because it’s really not the best bit 😉 I’m excited to have him here finally, and be able to drive and walk normally again! He has plenty of blankets, so I can’t wait to get out with my little princess, take her to the park, nice long walks, and all that fun stuff again! Feels like forever since I have had proper time with her not in the house! So I’m going to make a huge effort after baby, getting out as much as we can, rain or shine! I think having this spd has made me appreciate things a lot more, like being able to drive, go to the park, have a dance around the living room with her! I’m going to make sure and embrace and do it all, I’m going to make sure I’m a super duper mummy to both my little cuties! Plan lots of fun things, and random things to do.. Like go for a walk and find six leafs, spot three blue cars and two dogs.. Or something to that extent if you get my drift 😉 lol!

Anyway.. I’ll stop blabbering on!
Must keep positive thoughts!
Oh and consultant next Monday, wonder what will be the outcome and if this little man is still on the big side ><
Health visitor tomorrow.. But they just talk at you and say hi before baby is here, right?

Love & Care
WeeOhana xx

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Birthday, growing up, nursery- catch up

My sister has taken my little one to the farm so finally I have got some time to blog and sit down to myself! Sorry it has been so long, I have just been so tired at night, with this horrible pregnancy malarky and sorting out the house! My little two year old has now turned three, she has now got a ‘big girl’ room and we have painted the nursery and started to sort all we have bought! I’ll fill you in on it all!

Let’s start with the ‘big girl’ room! We wanted to get her moved and into it a good time before baby appeared so she didn’t think she was getting kicked out of her room for baby, which technically is the case, but she got moved to a bigger room and it’s all pretty and lovely so it was a good move for her 😉 though we all know how kids think and I didn’t want her having it in her head that she had to move with no choice etc, so we let her decide on the colour and so forth! She choose a lovely colour, it’s called Candyfloss! Which yes, is probably why she chose it as she loves Candyfloss.. Or anything food related to be honest! She has now informed me that her Candyfloss walls are very tasty … I’m not sure if she literally think that it tastes like Candyfloss just because of the name, but she loves it so that’s all that matters! Phew new bedding, light shade, rug and beanbag are also pink with brightly coloured owls on them, which she also loves (she’s easily pleased!) we couldn’t decide whether or not to put the baby gate on her door to stop her coming out every five minutes at bed time, but we decided we would rather battle and get her to learn to stay in her room before the baby gets her, rather than having to take her back several times each night and also be dealing with a baby! It’s going ok so far, she stays in most nights.. With a little chocolate bribery 😉 though I think everyone with kids knows that bribery is the best plan! She has taken to her new room and being a big girl very well! I’m so proud of how great she has taken to it! She’s such a super girl 😀

It was her third birthday on Saturday, we had such a lovely day! I took cocodamol before so that I would be good to stand and interact a bit and it was a great choice! (I promise not to moan about pain in this post ;)) she had a frozen themed party! We just had a frozen bouncy castle out the back in our garden and then some homemade cupcakes with frozen toppers and some other tasty homemade snacks! I rather enjoy baking! 🙂 my sister, myself, my mum and my friend got into the frozen spirit with frozen tshirts, make up, nails, hair and so forth! It was great fun! I’m not sure my three year old really for the whole effort we had put in, but we had great fun and felt the part!
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Don’t we look fab 😉
I still can’t get over the fact that my little one is three.. It only seems like a year ago that she was born.. But then other times it feels like she has been here forever because I really cannot or want to imagine what life would be like without her! I love her little quizzes and so forth that I get, her little random questioning on such real life situations! For example she has realised about death and dying.. Yes very morbid,by but a real life situation that she does need to know about. She understands that people grow old and die and that is normally how it happens and so forth. I’m glad that she understands and all, she just seems so little to be understanding and questioning about these things! She’s growing up far to fast! Though I do much prefer this stage than the baby stage where they can’t really do to much at all and just cry and poo! Lol! At least now she can interact, have conversations, enjoy what we do and appreciate things! It’s fantastic! I want her to stay at this stage for ever though.. But I’m sure I will always think that.. Until she gets to be about nine and then the rebelling and so forth starts! I’m not to sure how I will deal with that.
Here is her enjoying her cake on her birthday, I must say she was super spoilt by everyone and it made me see how many people do actually care and appreciate her!

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Now for an update on the pregnancy, nursery etc! 😀 I’ll try and not moan to much 😉
My hubby painted the nursery the other day, now I wanted a lovely little baby blue, but he wanted this colour called Azure so I thought, ok why not doesn’t look to bad on the colour match thing.. Then when he has started to paint I almost felt like crying.. I hated the colour and was so annoyed, hormones took over and I had to walk away before I started to ball! To me it was more like florescent blue! I let hubby carry on though and just kept thinking to myself that I can paint over if it is still horrible to me after a few months! Now a few days on I actually am starting to like it, thankfully! Though I wouldn’t describe it as azure blue.. More like Smurf blue! It goes well though with the bedding and so forth we have for him! We have went for a sea sort of theme? The bedding is called Bubble Blue from mamas and papas! It is so cute, has little whales, jelly fish and crabs on it! I love it and it feels so nice! It came with a fleece blanket and it has taken a lot for me not to just use the blanket for myself! Lol! We have ordered the furniture for his nursery and it will be here in two weeks! We are using my little girls cot so going to build that soon and then when the new furniture is here I can’t wait to put all the clothes in and sort out all we have.. We have sure bought a lot! Lol!
I had a scan there a week or two back, to check on baby and to make my consultant aware of my spd and how I have been feeling! When they scanned me they said that baby is looking great, though possibly a bit big, as he was measuring 4lb2, and 2 weeks ahead of what my due date is supposed to be. Though after 20 week scan they won’t move your due date! My consultant was lovely too! I am having a lot of bother with my spd, mainly because it is affecting my little one.. We had a lovely sunny day yesterday and she was desperate to get to the park, I felt so bad not being able to take her! So anyway, when I was up at the hospital we were talking about how I was feeling and so forth, she said it was obvious I was in a lot of pain, and that they aren’t unsympathetic. They are now going to scan me every two weeks and see how baby is growing, because another factor to my spd being so bad would be because of the baby being so big! I’m a pretty small framed person normal too, so my body isn’t good afford carrying a big baby! They have said that at 38 weeks they will check me and if my body is ready they will break my waters and then and there and I will have baby. This would be fantastic! At the moment I am counting down days to be out of pain, not to have a baby which is wrong! So it’s great that they have told me this.. I just want to make sure.p I’m ready for 38 weeks though I’m not sure how! Any tips? Lol! I am back up next week and I am going to make sure that my consultant write that down in my maternity notes, just incase I get someone else and they don’t know what she has agreed or told me! I am also going to ask her if she will put down that If at 38 weeks and I’m not ready will she induce me at 39 weeks, if I know for sure that I will be induced at 39 weeks, I think I will be able to start to enjoy this pregnancy more! It is scary to think though that if I go to 40 weeks.. Which fingers crossed they will help me out before I have 8 weeks! If I am ready at 38 weeks that there is only 6 weeks! So I’m desperately trying to sort stuff.. As it all of a sudden seems to have just appeared that we are on a final countdown! It’s not nice though because I am desperate to old things and I am seriously nesting and can’t do to much about the house! I brushed the kitchen floor and did the surfaces the other day.. Which I would have done most days before this and I couldn’t move for the rest of the day without excruciating pain! It was mental! So trying to do the whole nesting, sorting baby stuff, sorting house ready for baby isn’t the greatest!

On a final note, because I know a few of you enjoy seeing it, here is some of the paper cutting that I have been doing! If you would like a link to the templates just ask and I will happily send them! If any of my followers or anyone likes these, hit me up and I may be nice enough to send you one 😉 infact I will be nice enough, we could become pen pals! 😀 oh I would love a pen pal! 😀
So here’s a wee photo of some of them, let me know what you think please! These are all other people’s templates 🙂 I’m not confident enough to draw my own yet!

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Pictures aren’t the greatest, but you get the idea! 🙂
Would love to hear from you guys!
WeeOhana x

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Guilt & pain

How have we all been?
I’m currently in bed, over joyed that my little one is back to sleeping through the night again rather than her waking at 3:30am fun she was doing recently! Unfortunately not a lot can be said about my sleep.. I seem to wake up every half hour and then try to get comfy for half hour.. Then the same routine again, and again! Which as I’m sure you are aware.. Isn’t fun! It’s leaving me tired and even more down in the dumps with this pain as I’m exhausted and in a great deal of pain try to entertain my nearly three year old!

I have restored to doing a lot of sticker books with her, or just sticking stickers on a page! She loves it, and will actually sit still and do this! She isn’t much of a grade A at sitting still.. But stickers seem to be one thing that she doesn’t mind sitting to do! It’s fab because it means she can sit beside me on the sofa and do it, so I’m semi comfortable.. And she’s not running about like a looney while I sit and feel useless because I can’t chase her about the house and so forth like I normally would have done! I have been quite impressed at how well she is able to find where what sticker goes and how precise she is at putting it down the right way and covering all the white! She will have several attempts to make sure she gets it just right! She’s such a wee star, fingers crossed she keeps it up when this baby comes 🙂

I’m starting to feel really guilty, but I’m sure it’s probably normal.. I’m in a great deal of pain at the moment with this spd, I have constant pain all night and all day, even if I take painkillers. So what’s the point in taking them if they will only make the pain go a tiny bit and will also mean that baby will be dependant on them and I will have an extremely grouchy baby! If they made me pain free I would probably be more willing to take them, but they don’t, I still can’t do much when I take them, so what’s the point! Anyway.. I feel guilty because instead of counting down the days/weeks until baby is here, I’m now counting down until the pain is gone.. I’m feeling more excited about the pain going away than my baby being here :/ I’m sure it’s normal for people who have suffered from this or some other pain … Or at least I hope because I’m starting to feel really mean! I’m really beating myself up about it at the moment and can’t seem to rid the thought from my mind, it’s terrible.. This is meant to be an exciting time where it all slows down because baby is coming soon and because you just can’t wait to have your baby! Time has slowed down for me because if no one comes round, I’m stuck in the house all day, I’m sick and tired of this pain, I literally am tired of this pain because it is preventing me from sleeping and I am constantly exhausted.. I’ll probably get more sleep when the baby is actually here and this pain has gone!

Also walking about like a flipping penguin and getting people looking at me funny isn’t the nicest of things.. Went to the shopping centre today to get some food and so forth.. Took me nearly triple the time to walk through the place than normal! Ahh!!

I have been signed off work, so there is so much I want to do around the house… Nesting is really kicking in! Wanna know the worst part about it… I can’t blooming do anything! Putting a wash on/sorting a wash is a very long processes at the moment as I have to stop several times because of pain! A task that would normally take 2 minutes now takes about an hour… An hour to sort and put a wash on.. Joys. I want to be sorting my little girls room and going through all the baby stuff to see if we need anything more and going out to buy all pretty paints and getting excited about painting new rooms… But I just can’t get excited about it.. Infact, it upsets me even thinking about doing those things.. Because I physically can’t paint, or sort.. And with going to choose the paint, hey that will be another trip out with pain involved! Though j suppose sitting in the house in pain, or going out isn’t much different!

I think it’s quite hard for someone who hasn’t been in this position to understand what it’s like .. To be going from being able to do everything, to near enough nothing. It’s actually really upsetting, and if I beat myself up about it and blame myself much more.. I’m gonna end up locking myself in a room till this baby is here and hiding from the world! I have a funny feeling though it’s going to make me even more protective of the baby and letting people hold him, just because it will have been such a long awaited thing to get him out so I can be pain free and because *fingers crossed* I’ll finally be able to do stuff again and will want to do it all after having felt so useless recently!

.. Anyway I’ll stop ranting as I can hear my little girl awakening and seeing as it takes me a long time to get it of bed.. I may as well start before she starts shouting!!
I hope your all better than me!
Love; WeeOhana x

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Cuties!

I am so excited and loving the connection that my little girl already has with my bump! I thought with her only being 2 (3 in October) that she wouldn’t really understand it at all, though at times I think she has a better understanding than my hubby! 😛

Most mornings she comes in says good morning to me and then will proceed to cuddle my tummy and say good morning to baby! She is convinced she can see baby through my belly button, and will sing to baby, talk, and ask question to baby through my belly button. It is adorable and always makes me and the hubby smile! She will lay on my bump when baby is Kicking and laugh away as baby kicks her little head, then will tell baby off for kicking mummy in the tummy!

At the moment I am finding it hard when bending down and all the simple things.. So My little girl always laughs and says baby is making you sore mummy, he is growing in your tummy with his blood. I find this a great little understanding she has, as she knows that a baby is growing in my tummy and yes like everyone else baby will have blood inside! She tells me about how she grew in my tummy and that she left her toys so baby can play win them, she finds great comfort in knowing that baby has toys to play with, if you suggest that baby is just floating about she gets quite distressed and upset about how baby will be scared then!

I don’t think I give her enough credit, she will often come off with things or tell me things that I would never expect her to know, like that people have blood in them, baby’s are delicate, she said to my hubby one day about how she would like a construction toy and this blew his mind! It’s not a normal world for such a little character to know right? Where has she picked this word up from, I would say we never say that word in this house because well.. It’s an odd word to use in a daily context, or at least I think so anyway! There is many others but now that I’m trying to think of them I can’t remember, which seems to happen far to much for my liking!

I work as a classroom assistant and find some of the things the kids come off with adorable, and they always know how to make you smile! The kids I work with are in P6 here, so they are 9 coming 10. One of the girls came up to me when we were out in the playground and said to me so seriously “Mrs, I have a question for you, over the summer did you get pregnant?” I felt like replying, no .. I just ate all the pies! Lol! But I did say to her yes I am, she leaped with joy and gave me a giant hug and it made me feel so lovely! She then carried on to say I’m glad that you just aren’t fat now because that would have been embarrassing, but I think your going to be a great mum, I would love you to be my mum. How adorable can little ones be? Obviously this made me smile and made my day 🙂 then the other day a boy in my year opened the door and said “beauty before the beast and obviously your the beauty” how sweet is that? More so because it seemed just like a genuine thing for him to say, there was no back reason to why he said it, he didn’t want anything from me, it was just a genuine compliment 🙂

Anyway; must dash!!
WeeOhana xx