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Hearing & Doubts..

I am never going to take either of my children to a hearing test again… though lets start from the start of a very eventful day.

The night before I hardly slept, so many thoughts running through my head. Worries,wonders,what ifs, hows and all those lovely thoughts us parents are subjected too. His appointment also wasn’t until the afternoon, so I filled the morning the best I could to keep myself and him busy. Why though when you want time to go fast it goes slower than you ever thought possible!  We started off having a little look in shops and picking something up for dinner then we decided to head to a forest park for a little walk!
When we pulled up to the park, he decided it was the perfect time to fall asleep so I enjoyed the peace. Peace from the outside I suppose though as I was having a million thoughts a minutes that ended up with a really sore head.. typical. When he woke up we went for a little walk around the forest, he thoroughly enjoyed himself and so did I.

Then it was on-wards to his appointment. How downhill it went from there, the waiting room was full. Every seat was taken and lots of children running about and shouting. Not something I particularly enjoy and neither does he, as soon as we went in he couldn’t handle it. Bright light, lots of people, noise, banging, and pushing. I set him on my lap and talked to him gently in his ear to try and keep him settled the best I could, unfortunately it was all just too much. (He has started to hit himself in the mouth with his hand when he is distressed) On the outside and to onlookers he seemed calm at the start until he started doing this and I was trying to stop him. He kept going and going and more people started to look and one child asked there mum why he was doing it, then he did it so hard he ended up making his mouth bleed, and not even just a little bit. I scooped him up and went on the search for the bathroom to clean him and myself up, so that when we went into the hearing test he would be calm and ready to do whatever they needed. As soon as I had him cleaned up I heard his name being called so off we went down the hallway to see how his hearing was.

It was going lovely, they started with him sitting on my knee and then they rang bells behind him and lots of other things making strange noises and he turned to the majority of them and stilled to others, it was all going so well! The lady told me she was satisfied with his hearing and that he definitely didn’t have any severe hearing problems but she wanted to do another test just to make sure.. little did I know this was more a form of torture.. I had to hold him still while she poked this thing into his ear and did a test. He did not like this one bit, neither did I. He screamed, cried, kicked, bit.. it was horrific. I calmed him down when we left got into the car and he was laughing and smiling, but I had to have a cry. I felt horrible, thought he would hate me .. but he had forgotten about it. Little does he know that she wants me to take him back in three months as she couldn’t do that test properly as he was screaming so loud.. I am not looking forward to that.

Great news is that he isn’t deaf.. though I can’t quite decide if it is great news..
I keep thinking that if he was deaf there are so many things that they can do to solve this, and ahh.. I’m really finding this all so difficult to handle. I suppose that is natural though right? I’m trying to keep my head above water, with a happy face ..I don’t know how swell I’m doing at that part.. its hard to keep yourself a float and everyone else as well.. its tough, its really tough. I must keep going.. on a positive note, we got his appointment for the child developmental team and it is on the 9th of November! So a lot sooner than I expected. which is great news! Less time to over think.. though panic because its so soon!
Answers, or at least some guidance and support is what I need right now. I need to know what I am doing with him is right, that I’m not a terrible mother and it isn’t all my fault.. though I’m not sure those feelings will ever budge..

WeeOhana xxx

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Valentine’s Day, NI silver

Me and the hubby generally aren’t ones to do Valentines day, but whenever my sister (http://daydreamingfoodie.com) sent me a link to the most beautiful necklace I had to have it!
It was of Scrabo tower, which is a landmark in Newtownards which is a town in Northern Ireland. Scrabo tower means a lot to me and my hubby as it is where we first got together again and went for a walk and fell in love (at least on my side :P) It is also where he purposed to me and now we go on walks there with the little ones too! So as you can tell from all that has happened there it does mean a great deal to us and holds a special place in our hearts. Once I had seen the necklace, I knew that I must acquire it and wear it everywhere because of the great deal that Scrabo means to us! It was also made more beautiful to me because it was handmade here in Northern Ireland too. I love handmade things and buying from local people!

Whenever my hubby met the lady he said that she was also super lovely, she let my little one choose earrings for me too and then her child and mine played for a while! it makes something even more special whenever it is made by an equally lovely person, I contacted her on twitter to tell her how much I loved the necklace and was trying to bribe the hubby to get me them! Upon having a little chat with her I discovered just how lovely she was! I was chatting with her about how my little girl really wants one now too and that I would prefer if possible if the earrings could be made into a stud style … and she replied with how she loved new challenges and would work on doing a copper little Scrabo for her and on seeing how the earrings worked as studs.. what a lovely lady! Not only was she just lovely, she was excited about trying new challenges just for me… it made me feel a little special! 😛 So now I am eagerly awaiting to see how these little challenges she has set especially for me turn out!
I really advise a little visit to her page on etsy
She has some gorgeous little things! A little sheep who is also very adorable ;] I know she would also appreciate a little follow on twitter (@NISilver_COM)

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How beautiful and perfect is that! So much detail for a thing so small and handmade!

Back to our valentines day.. We Just chilled out in the house with the littlers & then I made us steak for dinner and ended the day with cuddles watching Lee Evans… he is a simply fantastic comedian! One of my fave!
Anyway.. I must go.. currently doing my Project life, I’ll let you guys see it soon! ;]
Remember now, have a little visit too https://www.etsy.com/uk/shop/NISilver?ref=l2-shopheader-name .. Let me know you favourite thing on her website in the comments & also what you guys got spoilt with by your valentine & what you did ;]